I wasn't sure if I shared this photograph before, thought I would as I love it. I was busy looking through this years photographs, all 12 gb of them and wondering which ones to print for the yearly calendar. I'm still far from deciding as i got completely distracted and had to blog! LOL
So anyway, we're standing on the verge of a new horizon, our lives are about to change beyond all belief and as much as I'm excited I'm also terrified.
The background is that after the birth of our second child I became very ill indeed, in the end Paul had to give up work to look after me and the children, that was in 2003, shortly after Paul became ill and for the next couple of years we struggled to keep each other well and hold our family together as well as bringing up our now 3 children. This year we both turned a corner and now we're better and healthier than ever. Tommorrow Paul starts work for the post office and I start life as a SAHM, don't get me wrong, I also have a job working for Happy Scrapper and I'm also in the process of setting up my own photography and scrapbooking business so it's not like I don't have a lot to do. The thing is though I have to start taking the children to school tommorrow on the bus and I'm beyond terrified that something bad will happen. Even though i've beaten agorophobia I still have days where going out the house is tough and going on the bus is tougher as i have nightmares about being attacked on the bus. Tommorrow is particularly tough as Paul has to work from 9am to 5pm and I figure if I can just get though that I'll be fine as Pauls normal hours will be 8am - 12.45pm, not the longest of working days but hey he's a postman!!
I think this week will be toughest and then hopefully it will get easier and easier as time passes. Tommorrow I plan to go and do some christmas shopping with Looby after we've dropped Iain and abigail at school and hopefully keeping busy is the key. I'm going to miss my man so much, we're rarely apart and for me standing at the dawn of a new day is quite intimidating!
Wish me luck dear reader for I think I might just need it.
Loevly pic! I'm sure that once you get this week out of the way you'll be fine! I'll be checking back for progress reports! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI am wishing you all the luck in the world hunny! I know I don't know you, just from the conversations we had online about the Happy Scrapper design team, but you seem like such a lovely lady, and you deserve nothing but a little luck and a lot of happiness! :o)
ReplyDeleteI will pray that you conquer this fear and that nothing happens. Good luck with your new life!
ReplyDeleteJust remember, there are people (like me) who've never even met you, but care for you :) You'll do fine, and I'll be thinking of you! *Big Hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh, by the way, I love that pic!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful picture! Best of luck today, you're right, it does get easier with time, just remember to be kind to yourself, Rhi x
ReplyDeleteTake a deep breath. you can do it. Great photo.
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