Wednesday Woes!

So I went for my psychotherapy appointment only to find that I had gotten the day wrong, so I have to go again on Thursday morning, I am so forgetful at the moment, I had it on the calendar as the wrong date as well. That was my day of to a really bad start yesterday, I cried most of the morning, had a huge row with Paul who is spikier than a hedgehog at the moment, then last night we chatted and he was kind of supportive and I told him I had regressed to my agoraphobic state where I don't want to go out and see people and if I am out i'm terrified that everyone walking towards me is going to attack me. Then this morning I asked him if he was taking granny shopping and he kicked up a big fuss about it, now I know we discussed it last night and he was fine so I don't know what has changed over night, honestly sometimes at the moment it's challenge just to keep breathing.

On the positive side today is wonderfully sunny and I'm pretty sure that it's going to be another scorcher, I'm off to the garden in a mo with my sunglasses and my comfy seat, hopefully all of that sunshine will help me to feel better.

Honestly I don't want to go on about the difficulties I am having with my own self at the moment because I'm having trouble figuring them out myself, hopefully some clarity will arrive soon and guide me along.