Hospital Day

Yes folks, I'm siging off today as I go into hospital for my hysterectomy and saloo-opinghorotomy, yes so bad that they put three O's in it! LOL

I'm slightly terrified but I have just taking something to calm me down and should be feeling a little less angst ridden by the time the children arise.

I think I'll really miss my blog and of course all my on line friends, being an agoraphobic isn't so bad you know, I have made more online friends in 3 years than I made in real life my whole entire life.

I'm going to miss my kids and of course more than anything my gorgeous darling of a husband, you know after the op we're not allowed to have any marital FUN for 8 weeks ;) IYKWIM, so this week we have been stocking up on the FUN, I think Paul may be glad of the rest! LOL

More than anything though I'll miss Paul being the last person I see when I shut my eyes at night and the first person I see when I wake up, he's my whole world, my total eternity, I love him so much and without him I'm just an empty shell of a person.

I read a quote once which said that you should always love as if it were the last day of your life and I never knew what that meant till I met Paul, he changed my life for the better in so very many ways and I know that I may not show him that I appreciate that all of the time but I still tell him I love him every day and I really mean it. I would swim through shark infested waters just to get to him on the other side for one sweet kiss, he really is my earth, my moon, my everything.
My darling Paul if you are reading this, know that I love you and that bond that we have will not change, we are soul mates and however far apart we are we will always be next to each other.

We're such a funny couple, we think of the same things at the same times, often if I am at the shops whilst he waits in the car I'll come back having bought the very thing he was just thinking about. Sometimes in the past it's been freaky, but I think thats why I love the bond we have, it's the unspoken things which sometimes mean so much more.

Right I am going to sign off now as I have to ring the hospital at 7am just to check that my bed is still available (god help them if it's not)

If you pray then prey for me tommorrow, I wouldn't usually ask but I'm scared of not waking up again and although i'm not a great person and God has no reason to listen I would hope that he would answer the prayers for my hubby and my childrens sake. If you don't pray then just send a little positive energy my way.

I have asked Paul to update my blog on how it's going, he's going to try hard, it probably won't be any more than a line or two but if you read his blog and style of writing you'll notice he never writes more than that anyway! LOL

All my lovely online friends, I love you more than words can express and without your support I wouldn't be here today as the woman I am, you give me strength in times of need, sometimes you make me laugh and sometimes you make me cry. Quite often in this life we brits are carp with our emotions so today I say I care and love you all and I really mean that. Kirsteen, Celfy, Jane, Goaty,Cubby, Sarah, Louise, Jaqueline, Lyn, Rhona, Beverely, Kirstin, Angela, Alice, Carol,Sandie, Tracy, Ruth.... The list goes on, you are all very special, look after Paul and the kids for me. Forgive me if I have forgotten anyone, it's early and I am tired and angst filled! LOL

See you on the other side....