Dear Abigail or as I like to call you, Amazing Abigail,
I've never written a letter to you before and while I wrote a fairy story to your sister, that just didn't seem appropriate for one who is as amazing as you.
You are 14 years old, you have the whole world before you, you are beautiful on the inside and out, you want to change the world, you tell me this in no uncertain terms, "What is the point of living if you can't change the world?" you recently asked me.
We haven't always had the most amazing relationship, when you were born it wasn't too long before I was diagnosed with postnatal depression and though I still loved you with every inch of my body, my mind could not process all of the thoughts and emotions I was supposed to feel, as a small child you did most things early, you walked at 10 months and by 2 years old you had your own opinions about everything. You would get up in the mornings and demand a never-ending supply of books to be read right through until bedtime and when you went to nursery a year early you thrived because of your curious nature and quest for knowledge. I cannot recall the number of times we watched the Cat in the Hat on perpetual replay.
You are a polymath, you are brilliant at so many things, you got all of my brains (mostly specialised but occasionally useful), all of your dad's brains, your dad's athletic ability, my creativity plus a handful of something extra, something really special. You have my gutsy determination combined with your own massive quest for the knowledge of everything. You want to be a barrister now but it's not so long ago you were considering a career in theoretical physics, I'm fairly sure some children choose fireman or hairdresser but not you, you have always aimed high and over excelled in everything you do.
When your dad and I parted and you moved out it was the saddest day of my life, I know you went so you could have your own bedroom and I'm so in awe of the relationship we have now, I just adore you, my darling girl, I believe you can achieve anything you want to but you just have to slow down a little and enjoy the journey, your constant quest to get to the next step might inhibit your ability to enjoy the present so always remember to smile and be in the present for we just don't know what is around the corner.
Whatever you decide to do in the future and no matter where life takes you always remember I love you, my heart is happy every time I think of you, I want for you to be happy in everything you do, no matter what it is even if you, later on, decide to run away with the circus (just don't become a killer clown).
So remember this, for now, and forever, be brave, be brilliant, and most of all live a happy and beautiful life which makes you smile in your heart every single day.
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